Life to me is something that is full of energy, full of aspiration, dreams and many things that could be achieve. Yeah, that was me when I was in my early 20s. Career was always my priority and my dream was to be a DN (Director in Nursing). Everything was smooth sailing and at the age of 28, I was considered to be young to be groomed as a Nurse coordinator/ deputizing when my manager was not around. Even when I was not feeling well, I still went to work, trying to put my best in work.
However, everything changed when I conceived.
Family became priority and because of family, I changed jobs that offered a stable office hours and weekends off. I was so used not to take leave when I was sick but this changed when I became a parent. Just a cough from my little one would send me to the Doc and get a childcare leave, just to be with her. Work became 2nd priority.
Now as the three of them grow up, work become important again. I feel that there was so much lost, that I could do. It is the personal achievement or satisfaction I was seeking for my gratification.
But I also know that I have to let go certain things. I don’t think I will be so yearning to be on the top of the corporate ladder. I am fine to take on assignments which I think is challenging. But I am more keen to get myself back to hobbies I will love to do, such as crocheting, photography, cooking.
I hope I have more energy to channel for those hobbies though. It’s time to do so….
I miss writing. The past 3 months have been hectic and felt my energy being sapped away fast and furious. No matter how much I rest, it is still not enough. Thinking of a long break… but checking on my banks statement does not justify myself getting a long break though…. 😰
I have always love Kikki K products and adored their shop front very much. Recently, I went to one of their outlets, hoping to get a weekly planner. After browsing for like 1/2 hour and approaching their staff to ask for the weekly planner I want very much, to my disappointment, there isn’t such weekly planner. This weekly planner is either you buy for one whole year of time planner, which obviously, is going for $3/ as a sale item but the contents which I can utilize is left with a shelf life of 6 more months. The rest of the monthly view, I don’t need it at all. So even for $3, I do not want to spend that amount of money on it.
It’s so hard to get an ideal planner refills- current ones don’t suit my styles at all. I went to one of the scrap-booking store and found out My Prima Planner, but it’s too much graphics and looks complicated, though I do love some of the fans’ work. MPH, The Times bookshops carries planners though but it’s too professional to my taste and expensive.
Well, I still love those Sanrio ones from Japan…but too kiddish to bring to work.
I was thinking of designing the pages myself but it’s gonna be a lot of work…guess I am gonna get the Kikki ones back then.
I have been busy with work that I sort of neglected my blog.
However, I still think about blogging every now and then but I was too tired or should I say lazy to get blogging.
Ever since the last time, I updated my blog in April, May was one huge hectic month with teaching and assignments to submit. I am glad to say that I am left with two essay to submit and 1 exam to complete currently. Though the datelines are near, I vow to finish it by then.
Next week is a little mid semester break for me. I hope by then I have completed my 500 words assignment and my exam. This Friday, my 2500 words assignment is due though! Anyway, to carry on, next week, I am gonna bring the kids out for some excursion. To the bird park, to the zoo! At least some time spent with the kiddos before the sem starts again in two weeks time.
Ever since last week, I have been going for multiple meetings and courses. It’s never ending actually, and this week, the semester starts with a bang and the yeah, the marathon of a semester has finally started. I have been rushing for classes everyday, in the midst of the classes, the graduation rehearsals also started.
This is so busy that yeah, I neglected my studies. Hopefully, I can catch up my studies but seems the chances are slim. Too many workload to do…simply to say….
Bickering is always a common happening in relationship. Be it with partner, parents, siblings or friends.
I used to be defensive or even try to argue hard to win my point but more than ever, I found myself more angry, unable to catch breath in between due to my blood pressure shooting sky high and my heart pumping faster due to the fight/flight response.
As I got older, especially I have kids, I found myself mellowed down. Nowadays, when there is a bickering session going on, I just shut myself up by literally not responding to the words that flew into my ears. Instead, looking around by surrounding helps and calms me down.
I bet most of us agree that bickering allows points to get across to the other and make known that this…this…that.. that is happening and I don’t like…..and this is the real thing that is bothering the other person.
Hence, I would usually listen…keep my cool…and after the person has simmered down, then it’s discussion time.
This would be a better way to solve the issue rather than having two or more people bickering. Everyone argues, no one cares to listen! Problems not solved and it just gets piled up under the carpet.